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February 10th, 2006
10:12 pm - Testing
Andrew and I both passed our exam for 4th kyu.
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January 18th, 2006
10:37 pm - It's a little late, but...
I've never made a new year's resolution, but this year I have one: to be honest with myself.
More to come.
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January 16th, 2006
09:03 pm - Well that's never happened before.
My sensei complimented me. A "You're looking good" after class. Thankfully it was sandwiched between a "your foot in back stance is turning out a little too much" and a "your backstances at the end of heian godan are a little too short. Don't pull back so much when you are shifting from front stance." If the compliment hadn't been sandwiched between two corrections I'm not sure what I would have done. Perhaps imploded. I don't know. But I remember getting really angry when Sensei Jemmott complimented me with no corrections attatched. I'm used to my sensei who never ever compliments. When you improve you get a "well, not quite, but that's better" or a "well, it's faster, but you'd still get hit" or the like. Never a compliment since I started training with him. It felt kinda odd. Especially since I was feeling off today since it's my first day back after the damn sinus infection. So yeah, I'm glad he gave me corrections witht he compliment, because that saved me from having to say thank you. Instead I could discuss how to go about correcting the problems, which is MUCH more comfortable.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/confused.gif) confused
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January 6th, 2006
09:40 pm - Miracles DO occur
As I'm sure all of you out in LJ land know, I'm a greenbelt. Translated: I suck. That's just the nature of being a greenbelt. If I didn't suck, I wouldn't be a greenbelt. Life as a greenbelt sucks, just like greenbelts suck. Unlike yellow and white belts, you know you suck. Yet that doesn't seem to help you not suck, no matter how hard you try. Intellectually, you get it. You know what you are doing wrong and what to do to make it right. You try to make your body do what you understand in your mind, but the quality of the transmission is about that of a cellphone in basement.
Today, though, my sensei pointed to the stairs, and I seem to have run up them and discovered there IS a place where the reception is good and my body can recieve what my mind is telling it to do. Now the next part is technical, so most of you won't understand or give a shit, but here it goes: My hips have issues. When you punch, you punch with your body, initiated by your hip movement. Well, my hips are moving, but they are loose and my body isn't as connected to them as is should be and I tend to lose pressure to the ground, which basically makes my technique worthless, as I am a dinky little female with no strength. And sometimes I just can't even get them around. Sensei has always told me that I seem to be trying to pivot my hips around a central point, but that is incorrect; the movement is not circular. He keeps trying to explain is as your hips are on a train track and that I need an inside connection with my legs. I try that, but I always look like I'm spinning (greenbelts are amazing creatures.) Today he tried telling me a new way of thinking about it: think of the hip movement like closing a door. The front hip stays in place, like the door on a hinge, and then the rest slams, giving it a forward feeling. And by golly, it worked! Nice inside connection, good pressure to the floor, good power generation (Okay, so by "good" I mean slightly more than non-existant.) My punch was WAY faster (I finally figured out what Nishiyama was talking about when he said to think of the fist as a ball sitting on your hip that you propell forward with your hip movment rather than using your arms to move it forward.) And then we were practicing the application for the side snap and then elbow strike in heian yondan and I was doing it against an opponent. Big guy over 6' and over 200lb, definitely. So here I go, trying to do this technique which is always a failure and wouldn't work against a six year old. And by golly, appying what I will now refer to as "slamming the door" worked. He jumped back and exclaimed that he was glad that we don't make contact. It SO woulda dropped him. That felt SO good!
Miracles occur. After tons of time training and not seeing any improvement and feeling like I should just bleach my belt because I'm so terrible, something WORKED. I now have hope of not being a greenbelt forever! Granted, I'm sure no one read to the end of this to even read what I'm typing here, but whatever, it's here for me to read in the future and look back on when I'm 70 years old and 8th dan.
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Chili Peppers
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January 2nd, 2006
10:30 pm
| Your Irish Name Is... | 
Kayleigh O'Neill |
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December 25th, 2005
08:07 pm - It takes forever to get your music from CDs to your iPod....
So I really like the song Doesn't Remind Me by Audioslave. It's a very sad song. But in a lot of ways I can relate to that feeling. It's just that my list of things that don't remind me of anything is different. But I know that feeling. It's escape without using substanes. Going to the beach just before sunrise, driving around freeways in the middle of the night when they're empty all by myself. Other things for me that are escapes, but not because they don't remind me of anything: getting pierced or tattooed. I tend to get stuff done when I'm stressed. It takes me away from wherever I am. Having sex outside a relationship. That's closer to the "doesn't remind me" kind of thing. It's like, there's nothing but the sex. Nothing nothing nothing. Just two people together. It's not about love (or the lack of it) it's just about that physical thing you're doing together. That's always fun. Taking walks in the rain. That doesn't remnid me of anything. Sometimes I think it would be nice if it were the case that everything didn't remind me of anything. Such a sense of freedom, I imagine. What do you think? Here are the lyrics:
I walk the streets of Japan till I get lost
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
With a graveyard tan carrying a cross
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like studying faces in a parking lot
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like driving backwards in the fog
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget
I like gypsy moths and radio talk
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like gospel music and canned applause
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like colorful clothing in the sun
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I ilke hammering nails and speaking in tongues
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget
Bend and shape me
I love the way you are
Slow and sweetly
Like never before
Calm and sleeping
We won't stir up the past
So descretely
We won't look back
[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget
I like throwing my voice and breaking guitars
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like playing in the sand what's mine is ours
If it doesn't remind me of anything
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03:04 pm
Getting songs onto my new iPod from two computers is a pain in the ass.
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December 21st, 2005
04:15 pm
| Greed: | Low
| | | Gluttony: | Low
| | | Wrath: | Low
| | | Sloth: | Low
| | | Envy: | Medium
| | | Lust: | Medium
| | | Pride: | Low
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Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz
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December 20th, 2005
07:13 pm - Luck?
Yeah, so an A in anthro. WTF? I have no idea how that happened. I was expecting a C. I was expecting the same in geology. and yet I have finished the quarter with a 3.9 gpa. What the hell? I don't feel like I deserve it. Oh well.
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December 19th, 2005
09:05 pm - Happenings
1) Dan testing. Dan and Ted tested for nidan and shodan, respectively. Ted passed (go Ted!) but Dan did not (he has some minor things to fix -- Nishiyama said he should test again in 3 months.) Belt ceremony for Ted on friday. Go Ted!
2) Grades. I got an A- in econ, despite turning in a policy brief 5 days late (for 50% of my grade) and for God knows what reason, I got an A in geology, despite the fact that I didn't even turn in an essay for that class. No idea what I got in Anthro yet, but I don't expect to be so damn lucky in that one.
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December 18th, 2005
01:31 pm
How did my room get so messy? This is a big mess to clean up. Eew.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/wink.gif) immature
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December 12th, 2005
08:46 pm - Examination
Sensei said today that in February both Andrew and I will be testing for 4th kyu. Testing on Heian Godan, which is actually what I was tested on for 5th kyu in the old club. Kinda want to test on Tekki Shodan since I haven't before and I really like the kata, but at the same time I feel like I want to go back and start all over with Heian Shodan. But I will eventually get both of those things -- I'll test on Tekki whenever I test for 3rd kyu and I'll have my Heian Shodan torn apart and picked at for the rest of my life. Such is the way of the karateka.
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December 11th, 2005
10:00 pm
Today is the date. Sunday, December 11, 2005. Gotta remember the date, so I will write it down, cuz I will forget left to my own devices.
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December 3rd, 2005
11:21 am
Mine is awesome:
I beat up George Bush and it was fun.
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Find your birthday...
January: I partied with
February: I had babies with
March: I felt up
April: I messed around with
May: I peed on
June: I robbed
July: I ate
August: I shot
September: I beat up
October: I dressed up as
November: I got married to
December: I had drunken sex with
Find the day of your birthday ...
1: some random guy
2: Michael Jackson
3: some random girl
4: a book
5: Frankenstein
6: Martha Stewart
7: a bottle of Hennesse
8: a flamingo
9: a bag of chips
10: a chair
11: Dick Cheney
12: my English teacher
13: a Teletubbie
14: myself
15: a ninja
16: a penguin
17: a pole
18: an apple
19: a box
20: my finger
21: George Bush
22: a cell phone
23: Ron Jeremy
24: a statue
25: a gnome
26: a hippo
27: my shoes
28: a prostitute
29: a porn star
30: my best friend
31: a cat
Find the FIRST letter of your LAST name...
A: for the money
B: for the hell of it
C: and it sucked
D: to be cool
E: to be naked
F: to eat cheese
G: because my mom told me to
H: for my girlfriend
I: for my boyfriend
J: to be sexy
K: and I had twins
L: at school
M: and it was fun
N: and I got sick
O: and I threw up
P: and something shrank
Q: in the pool
R: and then I streaked
S: and it was boring
T: because I was drunk
U: for a shopping spree
V: and I liked it
W: in the dark
X: and I had a sex change
Y: under the sheets
Z: in a laundry mat
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November 29th, 2005
08:30 pm
Yes, it is finished. It was a while ago, and now there are pictures:
This ...
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November 19th, 2005
03:29 pm
I haven't traveled very far down this road, but it's one I'm not going to travel anymore. It just isn't doing me good. I've met some people along the way who are some of the most tremendous people alive, and I'm glad to have met them. But I've put more of myself into this than I'm willing to do anymore. So it's over. This is good bye. Uneventful, not especially heart-breaking, goodbye. For me and for everyone else too. I was never a big part of any of their lives, and they never will of mine, and so we'll just fade into each others' memories or a distant past. I'll look back on this in 20 years and wonder what would have happened if I had made the opposite choice, but by then I will have forgotten the pain, so it will be regretable. I will have forgotten that the road I am chosing hurts less. So it always seems to go. I'll probably always wonder what might have been. But I have nothing left to give.
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November 13th, 2005
08:34 pm - Zen Dust
It's been a long time, and to tell you the truth, I'm not exactly happy to see you. I look at you and see a cluttered mind, a scattered mind, a childish mind, someone who is hedonistic and selfish and does things for all the wrong reasons. I shoved you in a closet and now that I've pulled you out and had a look in you I see that you're very dusty. It's my fault for having set you there and not cleaned you in so long, but instead it's you that I'm mad at.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) disappointed
Current Music: Audioslave
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November 7th, 2005
08:58 pm - Ow
Seminars are awesome, but training all day for two days, plus training the night before and the night after the seminar is very very owie. But awesome.
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November 4th, 2005
09:25 am - Awesome quiz
 | You scored as Sex God. You are a master at sex. You make your partner weak in the knees, and you know it. You've had the practice, and you've read the books, but don't get too cocky (pun intended) or you'll get put into place.
Sex God | | 83% | A Romantic | | 73% | A Slave To BDSM | | 63% | Virgin | | 43% | </td>
How are you in bed
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November 3rd, 2005
10:27 pm - Hair
I'm dying my hair right now. It's like an auburn/bright red color. Seems interesting so far even though it's still wet and gross. Hopefully it'll look awesome.
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